"My vice-chairman, Murray, died two years ago and it really hit me far more than I ever thought.

Murray was a true friend. We used to go on family holidays together and go and watch away games together and it makes you realise that there are things other than cricket.

I want to go on another summer holiday but it's always planned around cricket so I can miss one one-day game. I went to the World Cup, which was cricket.

I've always wanted to go on a cruise and go across Canada and America on the train and I'd like to go up to Alaska.

Those are the things that I want to do before anything happens like it did with Murray.

Murray's death really put things into perspective. It really made me think.

Everything that we did was cricket and it was me, albeit that it was me who travelled the world watching cricket, Murray never did.

He always said he would but then he was either too busy or when he could have gone to Australia the last time, he would take his whole family to a hotel in Lytham for three days and he wouldn't go to Australia for three weeks because of those three days at New Year.

It was very nice that he put his family first but he put his family first for all those years.

Eventually he said he was coming to South Africa but he only came after the New Year. He missed the first two days of the Cape Town Test. He arrived and within two hours he was up Table Mountain.

He watched the last two days of the Test match, and I think he got invited into the committee room on one of those days. But he wanted to see so much even though he had such little time.

We went to a safari park near Port Elizabeth for three days and then we went to Jo'Burg to the first day of the Test match and in the evening we were going to a party and he collapsed and died of a heart attack that night.

He was just going to have a quick shower before we left and he collapsed. He was only 66.

I've missed him as a friend, greatly, I've missed him as a vice-chairman, not that Keith Hayhurst isn't a good vice-chairman, he is, but Murray was more dominant.

We worked off each other and worked well together. I think about him a lot and it made we realise that there are a lot of things, and one of them is my grand-daughter Kirsten, that are more important."